Initiating a “new beginning” seems to trigger some interesting things.  There’s this period of doubt, fear, and
vulnerability.  “Am I making the right choice?”, “Is this really what I want?”, “What was I thinking?” among, I
imagine, a host of other things.

I’ve often wondered how exactly, people know when something is “right” for them. How does this “intuitive
knowing” differ from that sense of urgency? One seems more constructive than the other. When discussing
“urgency” with others, I’ve observed a common pattern of focus and some levels of anxiety. “Urgency” implies
that something needs to be done quickly. It’s a “force” or “drive” that propels some action. There may be some
relief when the action is complete, however, it seems that this sense of “urgency” stays. This was something
that occurred to me in June, when the seeds of some of my new beginnings emerged.

When discussing this sense of “knowing”, I’ve observed how there is a calmness related to this. There’s not
necessarily a “plan” of action, but an internal sense that the task will be accomplished. It reminds me of
something I’ve heard that always intrigued me. This notion of having the vision and holding on to it and the
“how” it happens unfolds on its own. Les Brown talked about this in several of his workshops. Is this something
that relates to this “calm knowing”? That having the “vision” of what you want and not faltering from that
allows the path to obtaining it to emerge?

I’m finding, with myself and those around me, that this phase of “new beginnings” is somewhat stressful. The
not knowing, the effort needed to complete additional tasks, the sense of wondering how it will all come
together. What I’ve recognized is that while I can look at the big picture, I also need to embrace those present
moments when I do accomplish something towards the vision. This is the calm, the “knowing”, the faith. I can
embrace that.