It’s a new month, and most of the time, it cues my brain with various associations like watering my plant or a payment that may be due. This month, it was something different. Not to be cryptic (yet I will be for the moment), I think of the million random (or not so random) events and things (synchronicities, if you will) that happened for this moment to occur. The timeliness and perfect alignment of random occurrences so unrelated, connected in a cosmic web of my unknowning (and perhaps for the better) to make this moment happen. At the same time, having a different experience, a different feeling, a knowing, so to speak, on the “projects” I’m starting shifts what I originally did to something different and new. I have a new perspective, different experiences, and with that different information, wisdom and confidence to draw upon and start over with these familiar spaces. It is starting over in a new and different way., I’ve also discovered a few things I can draw upon when the lovely committee in my mind wants to halt my progress or impede my growth.
1. Throughout the last several months, more than I ever recall, I’ve had numerous people tell me they like to hear my perspective. They know I have one, and one that is based on field experience, education, lived experience, and being informed. It rather surprises me and at the same time, it reminds me maybe I have something to say when done in an intentional, purposeful, and meaningful way. Restarting this blog is one way of doing this.
2. Deciding to make a change can seem like a huge risk, and the depth and breadth of that risk depends on the person. The second space I am starting over with first occurred in 2014 and resurfaced during the pandemic. Despite my fears (actually, terror), something I was reminded of helped me with this space. Being outside my comfort zone in a way that felt outside of my control was not okay. Yet easing into this new space, with guidance, support, mentorship, faith, and due diligence, are key components allowing the authentically passionate core truth to flourish. Uncovering these new skills, discovering what they mean and how they can serve others in a way that I can make some rules (i.e. have some control) with the when, how, and what of them provided an opportunity to recover and reclaim a lost and buried part of my core.
It boils down to is this: starting over is not really starting over. There is something different in this experience not present before: support, perspective, information, due diligence, passion, a core truth. And yes, it is a bit nerve-wracking to be on this side. Yet at the same time, seeing what comes from it is exciting and energizing. I hope you will join me as I continue on this journey and write about insights from the inside relating to harmonizing a human-being pendulum.
Reference: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/articles/201209/the-siren-call-starting-over
